"I Take Pleasure in My Transformations"
what postures and pleasures are you unapologetic about?
‘I take pleasure in my transformations. I look quiet and consistent, but few know how many women there are in me.’
— Anaïs Nin
“…your dysregulated body doesn’t need more meditation, it needs more screaming. more crying. more raging. more feeling.”…
I read this the other night during a 3 am meditative scroll and I thought, ‘Perhaps the crying, raging, and more feeling is the manifestation and invitation to a deeper meditative practice.’ …hmmph.
Nowadays, I find myself in a deep dialogue (and compassion) with posts that feel more inviting and less challenging. I see the invitation to be aware of a lens, even if it’s not in alignment with my own; and I remain open to all the ways I can find resonance, first.
I told a client the other day, “Be open to expanding your capacity to NOT see the chaos in everything.” I don’t think we realize -as a culture- how we’ve been programmed on a cellular level to always feel the need to fight. Fight every opinion, fight every post, every view or trend, every idea or visual of how someone else chooses to eat, pray, live, love…..heal….., or even protest. In the age of social media activism, I find myself holding space in a more sacred and energetic way for those who are being un-alived and experiencing life-altering traumas; still - within the time it takes for us to repost and shame each other in the dissertations of our captions.
Yet, I am steadfast and unmovable in my posture of pleasure and unapologetic bliss. Yes, especially on days where the overcast of discord feels heavier than the love and truth that abounds at the same damn time.
The greatest sin or injustice that we commit against each other is the belief that we are separate.
We are living in a frequency of angst, panic, agitation, fight, flight and fear ALL THE TIME. You want to know how we embody the ‘walking dead’ ? - by not breathing. Living, loving complaining, creating, judging, laughing, eating, desiring, facilitating, trusting, escaping, sharing, reading, listening, dancing, talking, praying, laying, stretching, sweating, worrying, diagnosing, celebrating, comparing, adorning, competing, caretaking, crying, releasing, resting; but are we breathing like we are in danger with no sense of feeling safe?
Do you feel safe to breathe as though you are safe?
Do you find pleasure in feeling safe? ; or do your rush this state of being so that you can return back to your default state of doing?
Can we go a bit further? a little deeper?….
Are you aware of how many answered prayers you don’t see because of what you’re looking for? Or, how many YES’s you don’t hear because of who (and what) you’re listening to?
Now after you give yourself some time to sit with those questions and allow the answers to come- through the body, not the brain; let’s pull a thread to resonance. You are here doing this subconscious work to unearth and declutter any dysfunctional emotions that are stored throughout your body’s meridians, to create a path of ease and flow that allows personal and societal trauma to be a catalyst for you. You are here to experience higher paradigms of optimal vitality and homeostatic bodily functions and to truly bask in the ambiance of unconditional Source love. Therein lies the evidence of why our ancestors used ritualistic practices, ceremony, healing regimens, and church!….. to rewire the subconscious mind to uproot the murkiness from out of our being, through the use of symbols, healthy patterns, rest, and pleasure.
You are here to love and be loved.
Freely given, freely received.
And if you’re finding it hard to receive this as a possible truth, you are also here to be loved and, perhaps, a manifested lesson for others to see an alternate reality of resistance. *smile.
Love is you.
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